I wish things happened in an instant. That when we knew we had to do something important or scary, we would simply go do it that instant. The waiting is what makes new things in life so hard. I become nervous thinking about things in the future that otherwise, if you were to simply tell me to go do them in 4 minutes, I would have no problem doing. But because I have weeks to think about the task, I think of a hundred ways to feel apprehension. Matt asked, “so, if I were to say, hey we have to go shoot a wedding in 30 minutes–you’d be okay with that?”

Yeah, I would. I know how to do the things I find uncomfortable. I know how to shoot a wedding and I know how to teach a photo class. I know how to talk to people and I know how to meet new ones. But my brain, when given more than a day to ponder, becomes almost immobile. It wants to crawl under the covers and sleep and sleep to make the days pass between now and when I have to do _____(fill in the blank).

Does anyone else feel this way? What do you all do to get from where you are, to finishing the task that makes you feel uncomfortable? Is the goal to create for yourself a life where you don’t run into these uncomfortable situations? What is the answer?



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3 responses to “Waiting

  1. I know the feeling. I get colon issues every Sunday night because I have to participate in show and tell every monday morning. I nearly make myself sick with worry. My suggestion is that you start advertising your photography services for shot-gun weddings.

  2. I like that advice. “Anyone get knocked up and need a quick weddin? I’m yer gal!”

    It makes me feel better to know that someone else gets crazy nervous about things that aren’t that big of a deal. This isn’t the first time we’ve matched each other crazy for crazy. Ha!

  3. Peggy Palmer

    I feel like that alot. I know I am capable of something but when putting it into action it is usually stalled for who know when. I think of all the things I could have done when doing nothing. Sometimes I just push myself and when started it gets easier, sometimes, just getting out of the house is all it takes. I heard the advise just take it one day at a time, don’t think about the whole task. Break it down and accomplish one thing at a time and it won’t be so overwhelming. I imagine it is fun to take the pictures, but the work behind it is tedious and you feel pressure to get stuff out right away. Let them wait. I don’t know if this is even what you were talking about, but this is my take on the blog. Maybe you could understand where I was coming from

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